My Coping Mechanisms
Running away,
growing distant,
blacking out,
becoming numb,
lashing out to push you away,
passive suicidal ideation,
you wonder why I do not remember
certain incidents,
why I can erupt
like a volcano,
am colder than ice,
or be 6 feet under
rather than spend
60 minutes on the phone,
but these are the coping mechanisms
I have just realized
and you were caught between
the war of my traumas and emotions
versus my avoidance
and unwillingness to feel
-POE(MS)
