My Coping Mechanisms

Running away,

growing distant,

blacking out,

becoming numb,

lashing out to push you away,

passive suicidal ideation,

you wonder why I do not remember

certain incidents,

why I can erupt

like a volcano,

am colder than ice,

or be 6 feet under

rather than spend

60 minutes on the phone,

but these are the coping mechanisms

I have just realized

and you were caught between

the war of my traumas and emotions

versus my avoidance

and unwillingness to feel


-POE(MS)

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